Sunday, January 2, 2011

First Fast Sunday of 2011

Wow! Life does throw curve balls. This quiet Sunday morning finds me struggling a little. I feel so letdown that things aren't turning out quite how I had envisioned. We do have a lot of blessings and that is what I need to concentrate on today in order to bury disappointment and perplexing events. The holidays are gone and a new year lies ahead. It will be what I make it to be. I am retired and have time to do things which have been put on the back burner. The first on my list is to edit my old missionary journals from 1976 to 1978. Writing was a therapy for me as a young woman in the mission field. Maybe I can discover why missions have to be almost impossibly difficult.

I do believe that God is in the details of our lives. I also believe He respects our agency and won't interfere unless we give Him some sort of entrance - a prayer, a thought, a desire, a hope. I recently read, "The Lord is voting for me, and Lucifer is voting against me, but it is my vote that counts." With a heart heavy with discouragement, I am determined to find a way to be useful doing, hopefully, what the Lord might desire of me. There are so many things - family research, studying, volunteering, serving.

And since no one ever reads this blog, I think I am safe in writing, for therapeutic purposes, what's on my mind and in my heart. But I will try to pretend that someone IS reading and think of something uplifting I might say or express to encourage and uplift another's heavy heart.
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4 comments:

  1. MarianneJanuary 2, 2011 at 8:18 PM

    My girls and I have been looking forward to a post on your blog so we could know what is happening with you. I will call you. I love you.

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  2. NatalieJanuary 4, 2011 at 9:31 AM

    I check my blogs every day hoping for a new post! Life is full of what I like to call "transition period." These are not happy times in our life but are necessary in order to get us from one phase of our life to the next. Transition periods are fulls of a variety of things: unemployment, lack of money, depression, boredom, etc. But most of all, a transition period is just a period of waiting. Waiting for a job, waiting for a letter of acceptance, waiting for the doctor's approval, waiting to get better. Hang in there! There is always a end to every transition period. Have hope and patience!! Love, Natalie

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  3. Scott and StaciaJanuary 9, 2011 at 8:04 PM

    We miss you guys! As I always say "this too will pass"...hopefully this hard time will pass soon! Hang in there and know that we love you guys (I think I can speak for the whole Onaga Trail Ward!)

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  4. The Carter FamdamilyJanuary 11, 2011 at 6:39 AM

    I still read your blog! WE are so proud of you and know this has been a very trying time! We love you so much. We are so excited to see you in 8 days!!!!!!!

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